can't stop and can't wait
i just can't really, in all honesty i can't
and maybe i want to but i can't
maybe i need to but i can't
maybe its just building up and i'm gonna let loose and then i will know i should have but i can't
isnt't that it? or is it? maybe its not it and i can (but really - i can't)
wait and press into night and i don't dream anymore unless its twisted and we all switch positions in between
i don't dream unless you're lying and i'm forever telling the truth
i don't dream the real deal and see it coming on fast cause in all reality - i can't take that
i just dream wishes and dream dreams that aren't really dreams - they're ghosts and fake smiles, tired nightmares pushed into false feelings
so maybe if i stop dreaming, if i stop sleeping all together - it will all fade away, and maybe if i hold back and hold out, it will all disappear in time, but maybe not
who's to know? i? no - i can't for if i did, i wouldn't be dreaming, sleeping, waking in fits of appendage fury
i kick so many times now - i kick at the world while sleeping, while walking, just kicking along and trying to get one good hit
but i never hit
just walk, sleep, dream, eat, talk and always kick - try to hit
crush into it all and try to blow it up and you'll see, you'll know what's going on then, cause in all reality - its not going anywhere and its not going there in one big nothing swipe
and i just keep kicking
not really dreaming

___---parch